Originally Posted by lowonjoy
This past year has been really tough for me, but somehow this song has always been able to get me through everything.
Today has been especially hard and then I came across your post and it honestly made heart jump. I understand exactly how this songs helps you. Not many people understand how it helps, but those who do have been the same places we have.
A few months ago I got a tattoo of the lyrics so it would always be with me.
Stay strong, and thank you for sharing this great song.
You brought tears to my eyes again. I thank you my friend! I see a true friend in you, and don't be scared I don't expect anything. You have already done so much.
I don't know if I am allowed to right here why this song means so much to me and why I thank you so much for it. I will do it anyways and the administrators or you will chose.
All my life I have been told by my mom I destroyed her life and I have a bad charachter like my dad. My dad has a bad character it is true but I wasn't brought up by him, I haven't even seen him since I was 5. And everybody has always been saying I am a particularly good person.
This critisism all my life amonst other constant bulling, apparently led to depression, and I left to go to London. There in my hard effort to be independent from my mom I stayed with a boyfriend that was smoking loads of canabis and gambling, some times big.
I was always the briliant student and managed to get a masters and could get a posh job, but I desided to stick to my true self and find my own answears. So I ended up presurising myself to find answears, and with the canabis I started doing whilst bored at home with my boyfriend and no one else to support me, I developed panick attacks.
I stayed a year away from work and for 5 years now I suffer. The last 2,5 years I returned to Greece because it was unbearable and he had been creating money problems to me as well. I had the fear I will get crazy and spend the rest of my life in an asylum. So cant get out a lot, work a lot or make new friends. Also unemploed most of the time (due to situation in Greece).
My mom is still telling me, even in my hardest of times, taht I destroed her life and taht I have the bad character of my dad. She sayed it today to my friend actually, when my friend called her and and asked her to help me.
I am afraid to go to London, my only chance to get a stable job thesed ays, teh way the unemployment has gone crazy here. I am afraid I might go back to my boyfirend and do drugs and end up more paranoid, unable to work, with him making me homeless with his gambling like we have been in teh past (for a month or so we had to borrow money from his friends to find a place to stay), and tehn doing harder drugs and be homeless for ever.
I still dont regret for not having a posh job instead and just be a bragging ashole who thinks is better because they have more money, and therefore can take advantage of the weaker of this world. (By the way depression doesnt mean you are a weak person it means that you have been strong for way too long. Was posted these days in facebook, and many people liked it)
So after I have explained all that, I would like to tell you that me having gone through all these, I often, in times when I find nothing to tell me I did the right thing, when I have no friends, no partner, no children, no job, despite my HUUge efforts, I often tell myself I must be very stupid and the "normal" people will say that "the very intelligent girl turned up to be the silliest of us all. She wasnt that smart anyways"!
So this song gives me the reason to understand what I did and why I did it..
Sorry for the long drama story. I just wanted to let you know. thought you might find it good to know.perhaps even hart warming like I found your song your story and your unswear to me.
So I thank you.