I guess it's safe to say that most of the people in here had experience loosing someone they loved. It's tough too deal with (specially when you're dealing w/ your own depression) no matter how hard of a person you are. It's like adding salt and vinegar to an open wound. We cry and try to reminisce all the memories that still lingers in our gloomy, clouded, and helpless minds. We loose our appetites, priorities, and maybe even our own selves.
I grew up with my grandparents since my mother gave birth to me when she was 16. My father left before i even reached the age of 1....and so does my mother later on, as she moved-in with my stepfather. Needless to say, my grandparents is the only parents that i've ever known. I love them dearly. My grandma died of cardiac arrest (while having her ashma attack) while i lay beside her at the age 7. My grandpa died a year later due to depression (and apparent suicide). I know somehow he didn't (couldn't) get over the fact that grandma's gone. I live with other relatives as I grow older. I think that's the start of me being me.
I decided to look for my father when i was 17. It seems that I needed to do this (at that time). I met him only three times before he passed away.
1st, was when I found him and had our introductory meeting.
2nd, was when i visited him at the hospital (due to a head trauma he suffered from a work related accident). He was in a coma for a year.
Lastly was at the funeral a year after the accident.
We never did have any closure in our relationship (as a father and son). He never spoke about stuff that i wanted to hear from him. And I never asked those questions simply because...I didn't. I believe that some things are better off left unspoken.
Death is a way of life. It's a process that every living creature goes through. We all have it coming. And for some, it's sooner than later. I personally believe that our departed loved ones want us to live our lives to remember them for their positive impact that makes us who we are. Life goes on. We take the good and make it better. And I really believe that you can make it better.