Just a sad, sad day. Unreal... Trying to make sense of it all, though how can we? And how can justifying it make it better.. It doesn't.. It is still a cruel, evil, horrible event.. How someone can inflict so many such pain, willingly.. Calculate and plan it ahead of time. And go around so calm and cold doing such horrible things.. I'm not able to understand it.. And I guess I never will.. Somehow that makes it harder. I'm so used to be able to reason, to make sense of the world. To draw conclusions, to look at things from different perspectives.. But this?.. How someone can do this.. Not only for a split second, but for several hours.. And planning it out for years.. I don't understand it.. I don't know how to think about it.. It is scary to think of that someone just like me.. Just like any other person I see in the street can turn around and do something like this.. And he's talking about us being brainwashed.. When he clearly is.. Or is he?.. Idk.. It doesn't make sense.. I don't think it ever will, even if I want it to... I guess we just have to do all we can to prevent it from happening again.. And stand up for what we want our society to be. A place where we can be free. Free to talk, free to walk, free to be together, free to disagree, free in peace, together. I try to have hope in humanity, still.. I hope we can all find hope in each other.