so last year my cousin was murdered by her boyfriend, any UK residents may have caught it on the news not so long ago, "Amy-Leigh Barnes". My cousin and I were pretty close and I trusted her a lot. When she died I was distraught but afterwards I felt nothing whilst the rest of the family were in shock and mourning. Is there any reason why I could not grieve? I sat through her funeral emotionless whilst the same question recurred through my thoughts. "why do I feel nothing?" I know I am not in shock, and I do not harbour any hatred towards her killer, though I cannot understand why. My feelings are generally ones of loneliness and sadness and have been before all of this. Is it normal to feel the way I do?