I found out three days ago and I am shattered. It was a long-distance friendship but very close over 7 years. I feel bereft. I struggle with depression at the best of times but this is so hard. He was quite ill but it was not supposed to be terminal. I have cried until my eyes have no more tears. There are few people I can share my pain with.

Please have my sympathies.

Our condolences FloatingDreams. It's very hard to lose a friend.

Sorry for your lost, FloatingDreams.

Sorry for your loss :(((

Thank you all so much. Kind words really do help. My friend was cremated yesterday and I cried for over an hour. He had such a terrible life in so many ways, and he deserved so much better. At least he did have a few good friends even if they were long distance.

I still just can't believe he's gone. I get that sinking feeling whenever I get a call on Skype from a different friend, and I realize it can't be him.

You'll never hear me say I know how you feel.

It is still so hard. I miss him so very much. I have never lost anyone before except my father who had terminal cancer, and that was 20 years ago. This grief just seems to go on and on. I am seeing a counsellor and keep hoping this will get easier.