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Old 02-15-11, 12:50 PM   #1
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I was only about 2 months pregnant. This post may be a little pathetic to some people but its just how I feel inside.

When I found out, I thought my dreams had finally come true. I didn't have to try anymore, I can finally experience the scans & seeing that little person me and the man I love had made and spent so long making. I can have the bump, feel him/her kicking have family members I'd been dreaming of getting close to love me because I am carrying a gift.

Just experience it all, but most of all give birth and have someone to love for ever and love me back and 100% guaranteed that my baby would always been there no matter what. I guess when I think about it, I'm craving love and a happy family that I never had.

Everyday I'm heartbroken thinking about what things would be like now if my baby was still alive.

I drag myself into baby shops to look at the tiny clothes .. it makes me happy for a second then it reminds me that I don't have a mini me to put into those clothes.

I get so jealous of hearing friends and family getting pregnant, half the time they aren't even wanted.

I don't know how to move on, trying to conceive again is just such a long process I don't think I can take anymore heartbreak.

Everything has gone through my head, was it my fault for smoking before I found out? Is it my body? Aren't me and my fiance compatible? =(
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Old 02-15-11, 01:55 PM   #2
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That doesn't sound pathetic at all! Of course this would make you very sad. Even after just 2 months you've already spent so much time thinking about and loving the baby inside of you.


I'm so sorry that this happened to you. Lots of love for your healing.
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im sorry to hear about this and what happened. stay strong you will get threw this.. Hug ..xox
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This post is by no means pathetic! These are your feelings and you have just as much right as anyone on here to get them out there. You have lost such a precious thing and I am truely sorry for that.

I hope you can get through this, if you ever need to talk at all I'm here.

Best of luck and lots of love
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sorry to hear about what happened- it must be sooo hard for you
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Old 02-15-11, 04:48 PM   #6
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Thank you for your kind replys.

I just needed to let it out as I think everyone around thinks I have gotten over it. Or they just don't care, they see it as not a big thing because I wasn't that far gone.

I can't really talk to my fiance about it for to long he doesn't really understand (being a man) , I know he's hurt but he can't really connect too much.
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Old 03-31-11, 01:52 PM   #7
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I can feel your pain....

Lately. I find it hard not to nearly burst out in tears when certain shows depict the birth or love for a child.

I wish you only the best...
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I realize your post is a month and a half old, but I wanted to post a reply. I am so sorry for your loss. You honor your child by your memory.
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