My father and younger brother were in a severe car accident in June. The driver ran a red light in a horrible storm. My father was driving and my brother was in the passenger seat. They were bringing dinner home to my mom and other brother. The other driver impaled their small car with his SUV. My father broke every rib (the doctors said too many to count) and punctured his lungs. He has been in the ICU trauma unit since.
My brother however was not so lucky, or maybe he was the lucky one. He died on impact. The death certificate states multiple internal injuries as the cause of death...
The other driver walked away unscathed and gets to go home, drive around, and be with his children and family. He was trying to rush home from work and get drunk. My family has been ripped apart and he gets to live...
My brother was going to be a senior in high school, he had just bought his first truck all by himself, he was looking for a job, he never got a chance to have a girl friend, never got a chance to live...
I feel like this how world is crashing down around me and I just don't want to be here anymore...My fiance and friends just don't understand. They have lost people too but I didn't lose my brother...He was stolen from us... Taken by some selfish man who decided that his alcoholism was worth more than my brothers life.
I feel so insignificant and just want to fade into the background. I can hardly stand to think about future plans when each day passes by like an eternity. I keep thinking to myself that one day I'm just not going to wake up.
Yesterday was my father's birthday...There is nothing to celebrate. Things aren't getting better... It has been 1 1/2 months and counting.