Sorry for your loss I understand what you are going through.
One month from now it will be one year for me experiencing
the loss. I understand what you say being angry sad not
having the strength to deal with it. I understand how doctors
don't, can't fix this. My advice is I have been to grief support
meetings they help some it's been more helpful to me to hear
it from someone that has been through it more than someone
that studied a book. It hasn't been that long for you, two years
feels like a life time but isn't really. Some days I think of her cry
all day but on others I smile glad she was part of my life and
thankful for that. You loved her it's obvious. Always remember
she is not all gone lives in your heart she will live on in you and
others that knew her loved her fight for that. I wish you the very best.