I posted here several months ago when my Mom was put on Hospice for End-stage dementia. We are grateful to have been able to visit her while she still understood we were there.

It has been a long journey, but we are nearing the end, since she can no longer eat or drink.

Right now I am grieving for my Dad who is so sad, and for my family.

I'm having a hard time being in touch with my own emotions ... I'm numb mostly. I want to sleep a lot, and I don't have a lot of energy.

I'm trying to do all of the "right things" to take care of myself at this point in time, but it's like watching a wreck about to happen. Everything goes in slow motion, and you are powerless to keep it from happening.

I wish I could cry ... I guess that will happen later.

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Right now you are being strong for the rest of your family, the time will come for you to grieve for yourself. If you can steal some time alone and let yourself cry it will be easier to stay strong when you need to. Try thinking of something really sad or watching a sad movie. You NEED to cry when you can so you don't break down at a "bad time" I'll be thinking of you -

Thinking of you dear LADY who has helped so many people on this site.

I hope we can offer you some comfort - it must be really hard trying to be strong for your dad and family - please keep posting and my thoughts are with you and your dear mother.

BRANDY XX

Dear OldLady

my heart goes out to you, I'm new to this site and logged on and saw your thread
I lost my mum to cancer a year ago after a really long battle. My brother flew to Sydney from NZ to be with me when she was dying - we have no other family she has always been our entire world.

You sound courageous. For what its worth from experience I would say just 'be' - don't worry about anything in the future, grieving will take its natural course. I experienced the emotional numbness, its quite normal - bodies clever mechanism for coping as long as you need to. Continual tiredness is also normal.

When you feel up to it please read a book called 'The grief Club' by Melody Beattie. It will also really help your Dad through this too. I wished i read it ages ago . Its all about how to put one foot in front of the other and how to cope during these huge life changes - and helps with the why me?/how to i cope/why do i have to go through this?

Be kind to yourself. I never believed it but now i do believe everything happens for a reason - even the pain.

Wishing you Peace and strength.

i'm sorry. it must be very hard.
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Thank you for your love and wisdom. And Crazy Bird Lady - thank you for the wonderful link to Tennesee Bird Walk. It made me laugh!!!

We lost Mom early this morning, I just got the call from my Dad. And yeah, my eyes have been leaking a lot, although my soul is at peace. It's been a hard journey, and I'm really glad it is over for her.

HUGS to my special Depression forum friends.

MY LOVE AND prayers go out to you dear LADY - YES INDEED SHE IS AT PEACE. God BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. brandy xxxx

My thoughts are with you in this difficult time, just let yourself feel all your emotions, don't push them down.

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