I just went through the one year anniversary of what you are going through
and ask myself the same question. I don't think there is a normal way to
grieve. I think it has a lot to do with how close you were to the person
how much you loved them. I am looking for a way to deal with it find
a peace inside but I know it takes time. For some of us it takes longer
than others. Don't beat yourself up for caring . I know it is incredibly
painful I understand what you are going through. Some days you seem
to be finding peace then something sends you back down again. I don't
know your story but it seems by what Dax said that you blame yourself
I do that to myself and I think at some point we have to find a way
to forgive ourselves. I am not ready to do that yet but I know in order
to go on at some point I must find a way. I wish I had answers am struggling
to find my own. Just know there are others out there that feel like you do
and you are just human and this is am unbearable pain many don't understand.
The situation may not be normal but it doesn't mean that you are not.