I lost my boyfriend in a car accident a year and a half ago, and im still not over it. I break down all the time. it was really bad a few months ago, I was really depressed, I had a ton of suicidal thoughts, I started not caring about school and almost didnt graduate. one of my teachers had me go talk to a counselor and she called my mom and they set me up to see a therapist, I was against it at first, I thought it wasnt gonna change anything. but I started seeing her and I started doing a lot better. the therapy was through the school so once school ended I was back to dealing with it on my own. lately I cant stop thinking of him. I still, after a year and a half, have still not dated anyone new. I dont understand why God would take him. he was one of the sweetest most caring guys ive ever met. I miss him so much and im going back into deep depression. I work with his mom and get to talk to her about it a little. but seeing her all the time hurts me too. I dont understand why I cant move on, its not easy. all I can think about is the last time I saw him in the hospital bed, when I had to say goodbye to him. its so hard for me to accept that hes gone.