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Old 10-05-10, 06:47 AM   #11
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Just so I don't forget, another song is Josh Groban with "To where you are":

YouTube - to where you are-josh groban with lyrics",

Your friend sounds like a wonderful person, and it is good that you keep holding on to the good memories.

About some people saying your friend knew something was wrong... she may have felt that something was not right, but it might never have occured to her that it was anything serious.

It is way wrong to think she somehow caused this, because she did not cause cancer on herself, and cancer is a nasty thing which often can't be cured. I've lost a few people in my life to cancer. But maybe they ment it in the way that she felt something was wrong, only she didn't get it checked out. I hope I am wording myself correctly.

She may be gone from this life, but her spirit might still be around, watching you. I do not believe in God, but I know for a fact that there is more between heaven and earth then what meets the eye. So your friend might still be keeping an eye on you.

They would want us to be happy. They would want us to move on with our lives. But, like you, I feel like I am stuck kinda, unable to fully move on, part of me is still in denial. But how do we find out how to get "un-stuck", how do we find out the best way to process everything so that we can move on with our lives? One problem for me is that I don't want to move on with my life if she is not in it. Sigh...
I believe there is more between heaven and earth than we know. I can still feel my grandmother around me.

I think she is watching over me, why else would I feel her as intensely as I do.

Maybe we just learn to be friends with staying stuck.

I don't know. Maybe I can't let go b/c she was one of the few people in my life who I believe really loved me and accepted me, pimples and all. She always had a way of not making me feel wretched even when I was being a really dummy.

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Old 10-05-10, 07:05 AM   #12
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I believe some reasons why I can't let go is because, same as you, she accepted me for who I was, pimples and all. I've been an outsider my whole life, but she accepted me, and with her, I finally belonged somewhere. Now, I'm alone again.

Have you spoken to her husband about you not letting go?

I lost my aunt (we were close) in -98 to a heart attack at an age of 50. I can still feel her around me, even though I feel beyond help at the moment, for more reasons then just the grieving. It's hard on my mother, she loves me and wishes me the best, but there is nothing she, or anyone else can do, I've tried and gotten nowhere, but now I'm getting off topic.
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Found a song with some great lyrics, felt at home with them... thought maybe you would also... so here it is:

YouTube - nobody knows (lyrics) - the tony rich project
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