Originally Posted by Eyeland
In the past i too was worried sick i was losing my mind...until i made a quantum leap of sorts...it was like stepping through a threshold. I stopped caring if i was going nuts. And it was a moment of freedom for me, just my personal experience. It stopped having power over me and yes it greatly helped me to heal enough to overcome a large part of the grief about many things in my life....right or worng, worked for me. I pray you find peace and harmony, but let the grief and pain do their cycle. You honor the ones who departed from your life this way, and then you keep going. Just the loved ones would want you to :)
Hi, Eyeland. Hey, I really like your member name. Cool!
Thank you for these words. Especially "let the grief and pain do their cycle". They really cannot be rushed or ignored.
It makes sense. The thing is, I've realized that in the past 3 1/2 years, I've experienced a number of losses. It's like just as I was crawling back up from one loss, another occurred. I don't mean to make myself sound extra special or have a pity party here. I think I am one of those people who have a low tolerance to stress.
I've had recurring illness since October, and I really think it has something to do with stress kicking the crap out of my immune system.
Taking stock like this helps me to understand why I'm having trouble getting back on my feet. I just got a referral for a new grief counselor through my workplace employee assistance program. I'm hoping to get some support from her in beginning to integrate these multiple losses into my life.