it's all up to you watersign. i can understand how you feel and no matter how much you want to bring back the past to make ammends, it's not gonna happen. i think the best thing for you to do right now is to move on with your life and try to learn from it. you will meet your dad at some point and i can assure you that he doesn't want to see you suffering.
be strong and grieve not for those who had passed-on , but to those who lives and yet know not.
- You know what excites me the most about life?... Death. It's definitely 100% pure, unbias, certain, & undeniable climatic phase that will literally takes your breath away. The anticipation is killing me.