Originally Posted by zoela
You are going through intense grief, and it is good that you are sharing it here. I wish you strength as you go through this dark time. There is no way to avoid it but just to go through it and you will come out on the other side of it.
thx z, I like your writing, its positive. there's no hope here anyway. before this life was complicated and felt very meaningless... the recent death is second in two months, all close family members. have no means to cope with so much added misery. :(