The last eight years have been a first hand lesson in grief. While the strong emotions brought by the losses have subsided somewhat I'm starting to wonder if I'll ever stop crying when I think about the events surrounding the deaths. Sometimes I can think about things and I won't get upset but sadness is still triggered when I hear about other's losses. I know I'll never forget the people I've lost but I wonder if I'll ever be able to control the sadness I feel when I look at pictures of the people I've lost. I think a big part of it is these people's lives were cut short before life was truly beginning. One of these friends I was with the day before he died, I was the last one to talk to him, and I found him dead. This one really haunts me even eight years later.

Will my sadness over the deaths of friends ever go away?

It takes time. Sometimes things trigger for me about all the people I've lost. It's been over ten years since my dad died and I still think about it, grandfather, grandmother, friends. My condolenses to you

Thanks, and my condolences to you too. My dad's been sick my whole life and had to have a kidney transplant five years ago so I often think about what life would be like without him.

Sometimes the stupidest stuff triggers me like a fictional story about someone being murdered. It just seems whenever I hear about someone dying before their time it gets to me.