why oh why doesnt the NHS have treatment for this condition?
I have lived in this nightmare for 17years now and all ive received is,
counselling (ruminating to a nodding dog)
drugs (what i like to call 'shut me up' pills)
therapies (anger management, tapping exersizes)
My children were abducted by my bullying mother who made them hate me, they think i never cared but i always did and always hoped they would see sense but they never did.
Ive lost my children, my friends and all of my family.
Each and every day i wish i was not alive as i cant see any pleasure in anything anymore. You can keep the blue skies,flowers, blah blah blah,
why cant the nhs refer me for appropriate treatment? because it is and always has been ABOUT MONEY.
I know about the purchaser provider system which is our national health service, i know the cheapest treatment is the treatment of choice,
but how inhumane it is to let another human being suffer for many years
when the solution was right in front of them.
I wish i was a dog, at least i could be put down.
I hate this life, this world, this planet.
Im now going through a complaints procedure and my doctor has now suggested that 'if i genuinely want to get better' i should go and see him.
I would like to punch him on the nose for his narrowmindedness, does he think i enjoy living in this nightmare???
The only treatment he will give has already been mentioned, why does he try to con me into thinking he can help yet again? He must think im a fool.
There is a clinic in london which deals with my problems, and they are taking nhs referrals but thats just a fantasy cos it all comes down to money again. The only light i have at the end of this tunnel are the numbers ive put on my calendar. These are calculations of my life expectancy, so i can see an end to my pain will come eventually, hurry up, only 225 more months.