I'm new here and the main reason I joined is the fact that I'm having trouble in a LOT of areas of my life. This part is just the tip of the iceberg.
I lost two people recently that I cared for very much; my Grandmother and my best friend, both within 3 months of each other. I honestly have gotten over the death of my Grandmother. She was very old, in her mid 80's, and she had said she was ready to go for the past 10 years or longer. Her death did not come as a big surprise to the family, as her condition had been steadily declining for several years.
My best friend on the other hand, was totally unexpected. Yesterday would have been his 28th birthday. He passed away due to complications with his diabetes. He was kept on life support after coding once, and the doctors said it had caused severe brain damage and the only options was to let him live like a vegetable, or pull the plug. His mother, myself and his uncle decided the 2nd option was for the best, as it was his wish and he had stated many times he didn't want to live if he couldn't take care of himself.
I still have a very hard time dealing with all this, even though he passed away October 19th. This holiday season will be the first in 14 years I've not had him with me. We spoke on the phone EVERY DAY whenever I was living out of state, and when we did live in the same city, we always made time to hang out every day after work. We were school mates in high school, co-workers, roommates at one point, and according to him, we were "Brothers". I was as close to him as one, and him to me.
I guess I'm just looking for other people who know what it's like to deal with the same thing I'm going through. I've always been very prone to depression, and with everything going on in my life (relationship problems, parenting issues, work-related anxiety, deaths in the family, etc.) I feel as if I need a support system of some type. I can't vent to my other half, as she can be pretty insensitive to my feelings sometimes.
Any advice, suggestions, or whatever else would be greatly appreciated.