I have in the last few months changed my mind set on a lot of things and can honestly say I can see a light at the end of the tunnel.
I have looked at the word 'Can't' and said I will try, yes, sometimes its failed and havent been able to do it but tried again. Each time I remembered the part that I failed at and tried harder at that point.
I have looked at the things from the past 1 at a time and trying to address each issue (and theres a few)
I know I have a long way to go but just saying I can instead of I cant or I wont is getting me to a place that gives me hope.