I used to try so hard to learn people and be more social, but, my mind is way too advanced, I dont virw the world the same as other people and I never fit in anywhere. I'm not totally suicidal because I have tons of debt and would hate to shift that burden to my immediate family, my mother and brother. They the only reason I'm not killing myself, but I'm sure if my brother was not related to me he wouldn't fuck with me. All these people are fake, I am up and have stability and money, I'm down and nobody wants to answer the phone or lend a hand unless we are in some type of business together. Fuck this world and fuck society. I'm going to get rich and take care of my mom and little bro. Once my mom dies, I dont care, theres only one girl I'm really crushing on at this point. She has similar fuck the world views and I want to get her. If it doesnt work I'm just going to use people the same way they use me. And when it all fails, and my mother and brother straight and I'm out of debt. Goodbye world.