I've been listening to this song for the last hour, and crying just as long. There's a line in the song that goes:
Hey there little homecoming queen in that back seat
I'll bet his brown eyes are promising you everything!
And I know you want to be just like your friends
But he'll still love you if you don't give in
But if those girls were being honest that have been where you're at
I'd bet they'd tell you they wish they had their innocence back
It is unbelievable how much I regret having sex, and I didn't think I would. I didn't understand how much my virginity meant to me until I didn't have it anymore. I don't want to beat myself up over this, but... I know there isn't a magic spell to getting your virginity back (I understand that once it's gone, it's gone) but is there anything I can do to not want to kill myself from all this regret?
Am I allowed to tell my boyfriend that I don't want to have sex anymore? At least not now. I feel like I can't do that for some reason. It's like, because we've already done it, I have to keep doing it now. Am I allowed to tell him I don't want to keep doing it until I know I'm absolutely ready
to do it again? It won't change that I'm not a virgin, but maybe it'll help me heal from the regret to the point that I can deal with it.
I don't know.
Please help me.