so 'm really techy and a friend of mine got me a graphics card for my computer, and my dad saw me taking the cover off the computer and kinda attacked me. he just kind of beat me and said that i'd go to jail for stealing (i didn't steal it) and that he hated me and that my interest in computers (probably the one thing keeping me alive, im a failing student at a prestigious school) was probably the reason that im failing... I really feel like dying in my sleep right now and i'd kind of like to find a way through this because i really really hate myself and i could just die right now and feel nothing... I hate my parents so much and the feeling is mutual... for example they promised me an iPod for my Birthday three mos. ago and they decided not to chip into that because they wanted to remodel the kitchen for $5000, for example... my point is, how am i supposed to live with a pair of hateful, self interested people like them for another 3 years?