Hey guys just wanted to post, we have had an awful year so far but just in the last few months my grandad is now in a care home, lost his home and has vascular dementia not sure if its spelt that way
i go to see him at the care home and he seems quite happy and other days hes off with the fairy's, me and my grandad we have been close for years i had lived with him since i was 8yr old up until i was about 26year old when i moved out with my partner.
but i have to admit it feels more likes he has passed away more than he has dementia and its horrible i go and see him and it no the granadad i remember i always almost break down in tears im not used to this kinda thing i have never been around it before so its new
the family don't wanna help i had to clear his house out my nan had to get a new place and each and every day its hard i try and keep smiling as im a full time carer for my partner but its so hard not to think about it.
i honestly just wanna turn around to him and tell him "come on lets go home" but that will never be the same never again and i honestly hate change, my granadad is someone i have always looked up to and stuff and he was 6 ft built like a house and always strong and i have to be honest i never expected him to end up this way.
im scared of him dying i don't ever want him to because i love him so much but man its so hard im not sure i can find the right words and cant find someone to talk to so here is the only outlet, each day i try and smile and make others happy because you never know when life will change.
thanks for listening