I am in so much pain today, and the last few days.
I want to go to my outpatient support but 6 hours everyday on the same chair, no room to move, relax lie down...
My pain is so bad today I cant even think about going to therapy.
I asked for a different chair, one of my group mates gave me hers without arms on it, helped for a bit but, still, I cannot recline, or move around much.
It hurts enough to have major depression, top that off with the pain and agony of my back surgeries, cancer and resulting pain....it doesnt seem that anything helped that Ive done in the past.
Just wanna crawl into bed and self medicate, if only I had the pills or w/e to do it, maybe I could at least sleep. Let me just waste away. This totally sucks!
I have to try to be positive, all the self doubt and negativitiy hurts any chance at recovery. How? How the hell?