I HATE THAT MY STUPID FUCKING PAST IS DESTROYING MY FUTURE MY FAMILYS FUTURE. I am sinking into a black hole financially and mentally. 70 online applications and not a single job or interview offer...... what do you do when no one wants you or thinks your a piece of shit scumbag. And all this work at home bullshit is so irritating, freelance writing, be a blogger sure, when nobody gives a fuck what I have to say or write. Never been good at anything but doing a shit ton of drugs, oh and I excel at being an alcoholic. My poor kids, my special needs son they deserve a better mother than me, I try but I know I'm failing at that and everything else in my life. I recently relapsed so feeling like a super giant piece of shit now. Hell i'm even day drinking right now because no one is here to tell me not to