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Old 06-22-10, 12:12 AM   #1
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I haven't worked for 3 years...first I was studying, than I became a full-time carer for my mother after her brain operation and than I became ill myself with two different illnesses hitting me. I'm still waiting on a further CT scan and specialist appointment to find out what I have. Anyway I have recently gone for a interview, it came out of the blue and I didn't know what to say so I said yes to the interview even though I'm not sure about my health.

Now I'm just sitting here dreading the outcome, waiting for the phone call to see if I've got the job or not. I know this isn't right but I had to tell a bunch of lies just to get the interview and to try to get a job. I hate lying but if I don't I will always be on unemployment living of $200 a week. I'm with a employment agency but they only offer me the bottom of the barrell jobs, the ones I know I'll never be happy in. I'm so scared all the time but I don't have a steady dependable work history and no one would even ring me for an interview if I don't lie. But because I get depressive, shy and anxious it kills me that I have to live my life like this. I really don't think I'm suited to the job I went for the interview for as she keeps saying that it's a stressful job and honestly after the last three years I've had and the pain that keeps hitting in my stomach...I don't think I'm cut out for a stressful job.

I hate it, I'm so shit scared to make a move....scared to live. It's been so long that I've been in a office environment that I don't even know how to be social anymore and the thought of having to talk on the phone and with new work collegues strikes me with terror. I can usually pull on a confident face for the interview (if I'm lucky) but they find out pretty soon that I'm not a confident person who is sure of my abilities. Being so long unemployed eats away at your self confidence, as people everywhere ask you what are you doing for a living? When they find out I don't have a job, I usually just want to run under a rock. It's hard to hold your head up high and be proud of yourself when by society standards you are basically nothing.
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I think if you lie in an interview or on your resume, and it's not going to come back and bite you in the ass, it will be perfectly fine. You need a job really bad, and even though other people need a job too... you're in competition. I doubt those people would even think twice of lying if they could get away with it.

Working is a giant joke, you work for $15k-30k a year and the person who owns the company is making billions. Money is such a garbage concept. I hate how this world is.
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Hi I guess you're right TheEnd, I know tons of people do it but mine are so huge and I don't have the puffed up bravado to carry it out. I wish I could live in a world where I could start again with no lies but I would have more luck flapping my arms and flying. It does suck how the higher you earn ceo's, executives etc make so much money and do less work. It's like the higher you go on the work ladder the more lazy assed you can be and fall back into a pile of money. I agree I hate how this world, not the world as such because I think it's beautiful but what sucks big time is following the rules made up by people I will never know, rules I had no hand in establishing, rules made up before I was born yet they can dictate my life. I think as awful as it sounds that it's not the world that sucks, it's the people.

Anyway thanks you made me feel not so bad and I've been feeling like crap lately so it's no small feat:)
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