**Warning - may be triggery**
When I'm mildly to moderately depressed, I tend to comfort eat a bit.
When it kicks into severe depression, my body turns a 180.
And that's what it's been doing lately - I feel hunger but I have no desire to eat, if that makes any sense at all.
And the screwed up thing is, I like it. I like feeling weak and out of it. I like feeling empty. I feel like an old friend is saying hello, and I don't particularly want them to leave.
I don't want to fight it. I'm so tired of fighting everything - I want to let this just take over. Everything else is such an uphill battle ... I feel like letting this one win.