hi so I'm new to this forum. let me introduce myself. I'm 22 years old, 5'11 and I weigh 150 pounds. I am absolutely disgusted looking in the mirror every single day. I try to lose weight any chance I get. I've tried numerous methods. wasted tons of money on it. all of my friends tell me I am crazy bc I don't like my body they say I'm too skinny etc. I have a boyfriend of 3 years who says I'm crazy as well bc he loves me when I am at this weight rather than when I was 120.(my lowest) I cry all the time bc of how upset I am with how I look. I am scale obsessed - I've went days without eating. then some days I eat everything. why am I so disgusted with myself and only happy when I'm at an unhealthy weight?? why can't I motivate myself to go to the gym and be healthy?