I can see how you feel. Only a few weeks ago I would go for about 5 days without eating and then I'd eat whilst taking laxatives as well as a daily self-prescription of slimming pills.
There is such a strong feeling inside that I'm not doing the right thing but I have to, in the few sensible moments that I have, realise that I can't live without food because I have no energy, I look so unhealthy.
You are not alone in this feeling at all, I've been told that eating disorders are not at all uncommon and that so many people suffer with this illness. However this doesn't really help when you're actually feeling this.
It's so great that you are starting to sort yourself out, doing less exercise is a great start and going out for little snacks etc with friends will surely help.
Hope things improve, Ella xxx