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Old 07-28-12, 08:29 AM   #31
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She said I could email her anytime, but I'm scared to. It's not stereotypical for a guy to do this and that's why it's embarrassing since I'm not a girl that's 100 pounds.
Hi 20. I found this information for you. I'm quite sure your therapist must be aware of the prevalence in males. And since she's aware of the issues you face, she may already know that you're at risk for an ED. She'll understand. <3

Bulimia Statistics: An Overview
Bulimia affects approximately 1 percent to 3 percent of adolescents in the United States, with the illness usually beginning in late adolescence or early adult life.

Bulimia Statistics Regarding Gender
An estimated 5 to 15 percent of people with bulimia are male. However, recent studies have shown that incidence and prevalence rates are increasing among males.

Many boys with bulimia share the same characteristics as their female counterparts, including low self-esteem, the need to be accepted, an inability to cope with emotional pressures, and family and relationship issues.


Another site says this....

An estimated 10-15% of people with anorexia or bulimia are male.

• Men are less likely to seek treatment for eating disorders because of the perception that they are “woman’s diseases.”
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Old 07-28-12, 05:52 PM   #32
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Im working on the 20 something posts, I'm trying to be patient. I'm weary to share my story so publicly. I mean, the whole ting at least.
I'm feeling very depressed today, and like self harm is an option for me.
I will post here instead,might now in this very moment.

Being scared to email the therapist is completely valid and real. What you're experiencing is something that is harming yourself, and you know that. I've had so many people tell me that and I just roll my eyes and say,'whatever, I'll TRY to be better'what it ones down to a lot of times when it comes to people knowing, is that they can help.
Often we don't want help. Personally, I want to stay in my misery because that's what I'm used to, that's the norm. For so long, I didn't want to tell my secrets, I didn't want to get better.
I still struggle with it.
You don't know what the therapist will say until you call them. Ultimately, everything you do is your choice. Calling, continuing doing what you're doing, misery, habits formed, whatever. It's your choice. And it's possible (I'm not saying its now, or soon) you might choose to take steps toward recovering and taking better care of your mind and body.

Nobody nobody nobody can tell you what to do. You are in charge of you right now.

Calling the therapist, deep down, how do you feel about doing it? What is the worst that could happen?

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Old 07-28-12, 09:00 PM   #33
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Yeah, the norm for me is feeling bad and even though I don't like it, it's comfortable. I want to feel good, but it's different and scary when change means possibly feeling worse.

I really am trying to take steps forward. I want to email her, but I just don't know what to really say. She's 2 hours away, so it's not like she can stop me. All she can do is tell me that it's wrong and the consequences of it and part of me feels like it won't do any good. If anything it will make her worry or irritated more with me.
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I really am trying to take steps forward. I want to email her, but I just don't know what to really say.
Try not to predict what she might say or think. You want to email her. She said you could. I know change is scary and you're used to feeling bad
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Old 07-28-12, 11:21 PM   #35
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I don't mean to predict what she'll say, but after thinking about it, I just don't see how emailing her would actually help anyone.

Now I'm wondering whether I should eat or just go to bed because I threw up a little bit ago and it was just water that I drank...
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It's hard to not think about what others will say or do, but if you can, just focus on self. I am trying so hard as well to not worry about other people and their worry.
You can do this. You can send the email. There might be much needed help on the other side.

I'm here, email sent or not.

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I have been though very similar to what you mention 20. I started with anorexia and then turned to bulimia when I realised my control over food had diminished considerably. At first it was so hard to do, I struggled, gave up, struggled again..and finally it started to become a little easier...and a little more easier...and then it started to take over.

one of my ex's suffered through a very similar cycle to myself too and I watched it all happen and was reminded of myself, only he was worse and was eventually hospitalised.

I can't begin to imagine what you're going through exactly because no matter whether they lump you into one category or another, everyone are so vastly different in their disorders...unique I should say, and one should never be wholly compared to another.

If you ever want to chat let me know *hugs*
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Thanks, it doesn't really matter though. I'm content with it. It's not a disorder, it's just more of a hobby that I enjoy.

I hope you are happy.
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God, what the hell is wrong with me, especially after reading what I wrote above...

I was doing 'good' (sarcasm) and didn't eat much at all for 3 days...but tried to eat today since I had to work. So I had a bagel in the morning and a sandwich for lunch with a few crackers...but I feel so fat. I threw up before I showered, but it was too late...it was mostly water and liquids and the food was too far down I guess. I don't want to eat anymore today even though I'm hungry. My sides hurt, but I feel bloated and fat...sound like a lady...
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like i mentioned somewhere, i know logically i have not become fat cuz i ate a can of tuna for 3 days.

but, i see the fat. i feel the fat. (i reckon attempts of distorting my body image r resurfacing. i shall move the angle of my full length mirror, i dance before, and it can make u look thinner. i kid ye not.)

i am so pathetic. lol.

but, i do follow cravings. i feel my poor body is saying, oh please. eat that.

i wish i did not so bloody well understand. i mean i can fit in the teen jeans. this skirt is too big. it was fine a month ago.

but, 3 days or 1 day of eating makes us fat. argh. and we know better.

i thoroughly allow cravings. highly recommended.
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