Never hate yourself. Hating won't bring you happiness and believe me I know how hard is to love yourself when I have recently ate 6 kg of food and from 53 kg I went up to 59. I almost tried to kill myself after this because I feel hopeless and helpless but I'll try to wait for tomorrow. I hope it will make the difference. I just hate the fact that I feel so bad about this what happen, I hate the fact I did this and that now I'm not going to let myself eat for probably a few day because of the guilt and these actions will definetely will lead me to other binge eating. And even now when I understand the fact what I'm doing I can't change this. Please don't be like me.