I have been struggling with weight issues my whole life. I am currently at 186 lbs. Because I am 5'2", I qualify as obese on the BMI scale. My heaviest so far was at 220 lbs., and I really don't want to go back there.
As a kid, I ate mostly junk food, especially nachos. I didn't eat vegetables beside corn and potatoes. I have only started to eat more veggies a year and a half ago, and I regret not eating them sooner. I am getting sick of my mom and waitresses at restaurants offering more food than I really need. My former doctor (who I left because he's a quack) told me if I gain any more weight, I will get diabetes. That was years ago, and I still believe him.
I tried everything from exercising to eating less, but I always end up going back to square one. I find it hard to exercise during the winter because it's cold out, and I don't feel like using a treadmill because I'd rather go on actual walks. It also didn't help that I crave unhealthy foods when I am depressed or on my period. And I have little to no metabolism, and I don't know or remember what gives me that anymore.
I am scared that I will get heart disease or diabetes (it didn't help that my stepdad has the latter). My husband likes me the way I am, but I feel differently, even telling him that I am a glutton. All I want is this extra weight to be gone. I have considered in the past getting lipo, taking diet pills, or even buying a weight loss belt, but got talked out of them every time. I feel hopeless because I feel that I am still growing, no matter how little I eat or how much I exercise. I just want to give up now