Ok ... heres a fast review or my weight history
150 pounds for about 5 years ... like size 12-13
under 120 pounds about a size 5
134 pounds size 9
i was in high school trying to do the barf thing but i didnt enjoy throwing up ...
then i just ate every other day or skip two days and eat very very little ...
but now i have these days where ... im not small anymore but still have this feeling that i need food and alot of it so i eat ALOT ... binge i guess then eat once the next day like a sandwhich ... or only half of it ...
i have "these pudgy little sides that stick outta my pants and a tummy that is way not flat ...
IM FREAKING OUT ...
it wasnt hard for me to starve myself and i feel like its the best way to keep looking good ...
and when im not a size 5 i feel more depressed then ever ... so yeah ... ive never been a size 2 or 0 though i cant get there i have a bigger from fer that ... i was skeletal at under 120 above 115 but even though i know this my want to be skinny over rules it!
what do you suggest what do you do to not freak out...
And the person i live with bought a scale and i sneek into her room to weight myself since i have been banned from scales altogether....
i cant stop wantin to trace my weight my scale trips ...