-shrugs- I'm tired, and I couldn't come up with a title.
I've never, in my entire life, made myself throw up after eating. I may hate the way I like, but that doesn't mean I'd do that to myself. I can't bare the thought.
That being said...lately, I've been throwing up my food. I don't eat anymore than I used to, but my stomach just can't hold food like it used to, and I end up throwing it back up. I don't know if that's related to depression or not - it's probably not, though.
I just...here's the thing. I spent my entire winter break throwing up at least once a day [one of those days I threw up seven times in one day, but because I was sick] and...lately, like I said, I can't hold my food a lot of the time, and I throw it up.
The thing is... -blinks- God, I am such a horrible person for even thinking this.
The thing is, I feel better emotionally after I throw up. Physically and emotionally. I've felt this way for awhile, but I've just never told anyone that. Like I said, I don't make myself throw up on purpose. Only if my stomach is upset from my food or I'm sick. It's just...I don't know. I don't think this feeling is normal at all, and I wanted opinions.
I'm not sure this goes here. If it doesn't, I'm terribly sorry.