(Triggering maybe)

I wanted to lose weight so I tried being bulimic I would over eat and then try to throw up but no matter what I tried I couldn't throw up. Stick my finger down my throat for 30 mins a tooth brush nothing worked (and I don't know why). So I started drinking salt water a couple times a week which made me throw up but I couldn't throw up my whole stomach contains no matter how much I drank. So my question is does drinking salt water mess with your system if you don't throw it all up?

I don't know why, I know being bulimic is a bad thing but I really want to lose weight and I feel like so much of a loser and a failure for not being able to (and my self image is so low because I'm fat) and now I'm just thinking I should not eat at all. Which I can't really do either because not eating even for a day makes me feel really sick and like I'm going to throw up all day but I never do. *Sigh* I don't know what to do. But those seem to be the only ways I can think of to lose that kind of weight I want to lose in the amount of time I want to lose it.

Salt can cause dehydration.

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M'dear, loosing weight takes time. You can't make yourself loose weight; not like that, but I think you know this. *nods* I don't think drinking salt water can mess up your digestive system; it's just salt. It can cause dehydration, though, like RS said. What I suggest trying instead is just eating less amounts of food, and more healthy stuff. For example, try eating small meals more often. Like yogurt for breakfast and a salad for lunch. Then whenever you choose to have for dinner, but make sure you add lots of vegetables and fruits with it. Perhaps even a salad. That mixed with exercise can do wonders, really quick. It may not be as fast as you would prefer, but it's worlds healthier than making yourself throw up. Doing that (making yourself throw up) can cause some really bad symptoms. For example, it can dry out your skin, cause a yo-yo effect of weight, enamel discoloration... You get the idea... Just please, consider a healthy diet as an alternative. The long-term effects of loosing weight in a speedy process like this aren't worth it in the long run.

Suckily enough, bulimia doesn't usually even result in weight loss.
Read up on it.
Not only is it terribly dangerous, but it usually goes undetected for years (until the victim's teeth rot out because acid has eaten the enamel away, or she keels over from a heart attack because of electrolyte imbalance), because... it does not result in significant weight loss.
Generally, a bulimic is at or above normal weight.

Maybe this knowledge will help you not feel like a failure and not want to be bulimic.
If you see a skinny eating-disordered person, she's probably anorexic (not that you should try that, either).
If you see a heavyset eating-disordered person with gray teeth because all the enamel has worn away, she's probably bulimic.

You don't want to be either one, trust me.
But I'm assuming that you most particularly don't want to be #2, if weight loss is your goal.
So quit puking now.
It doesn't help. It won't result in weight loss, and it may kill you, and will almost certainly compromise your health and appearance after awhile.

GLP beat me to it.

Most bulimics look like they did before they started making themselves ill - usually the only difference is that they have a whole list of scary health problems that they didn't have before. You can accidentally swallow the toothbrush you said you were using - your throat muscles are seriously strong and don't like to give things up one they've got them. I've even seen a news report where a girl's stomach quite literally split open while purging, as her constantly engorging and then emptying it had weakened it to bursting point. They found her on the bathroom floor, her abdominal cavity filled with food that had leaked out of her stomach. Not pretty.

Not eating also results in scary health issues. There's the cosmetic ones, such as dry skin and losing your hair. There's the fact that your body eats your muscles before your fat - so you may be skinny, but it's a fat-skinny as you body holds onto anything and everything you do actually eat. Your heart can fail, your brain processes things slower because its trying to conserve energy for your vital functions and therefore doesn't expend it on cognitive thinking, your organs can just shut down from not having enough energy to keep going.

And when you DO eat again, you will gain back all the weight you had before, and doctors say you can even pile on another 10% more due to the fact that your body no longer knows what to expect or how to react with food - it's stuck in famine mode.

So yeah, if you want to lose weight, an eating disorder is very much not the way to go.

You want to eat small, healthy meals (about 300-500 cals) several times a day. Seriously, it sounds counterintuitive, but constantly having small healthy snacks along with three healthy meals will give your body a constant supply of energy - so it will start burning calories faster - causing you to lose weight with a sped up metabolism.

Also, if you work out and build muscle, you will lose weight, as an ounce of muscle takes far more energy for your body to obtain than an ounce of fat.

Hi there,
Welcome to TTL :)

I don't think purging is about weight loss. I don't suffer from bulimia, but I do purge from time to time (and I am very overweight) as part of my depression,and I never have fat in mind when I do. It's always about guilt. In my times of low self-esteem I either stop eating, or I binge and purge. I hate myself so much that giving myself the luxury of food, which is a nurturing thing, is completely unbearable, and I have to punish myself.

This kind of thing is NOT a way to lose weight, and it won't help. I know how it feels to be totally desperate, and need to do something drastic to change your body. It can cause such a distorted view of yourself that you don't even perceive things rationally anymore.

Here's what will happen if you make this a habit:

You hate yourself.
You want to have self-control, and deny your needs. You don't deserve to have those needs met.
You try not to eat, because if you do you will be giving in, and you'll gain a million kilos and be fat forever.
You lose that self-control (because at this point you have no faith in yourself anyway.)
You eat.
You binge for comfort.
You feel guilty because you gave in.
You can't keep this stuff in your stomach, because the guilt is killing you.
You purge.
You spit up blood.
You feel guilty because you reduced yourself to this by not having the self-control in the first place.
You hate yourself.

You really don't want this. If you somehow lose weight this way, you still won't be happy with yourself, because by the time you reach your goal, this will all be an obsession for you, and you won't be able to live any other way.

Please don't try to purge anymore! Make weight loss about taking care of your body. Go to the gym, and be proud of yourself when you've made an effort that's in your best interests. Choose better food, and be proud of that too. You will feel so much better, even if the weight loss isn't rapid. You'll feel better because you're taking care of yourself.

LOVE YOURSELF!
(harder than it sounds, I know, but try!)

~Plex

(I forgot...weight loss tip: Dance Dance Revolution! I lost eight kilos in two weeks just DDR'ing every day...and it's good fun! ;)

"I tried being bulimic"

You can't TRY to be bulimic.