Nobody desirves that dear, NOBODY! For the mental abusive part, I've been there. I too was told things time & time again, for years & I truly started believing them, which is so not right!!! I didn't learn, until much later in my life, that what other people say doesn't matter, it's what I think & do with my life that matters the most! I hope that this might help you in some kind of way(s), because I care & I know how it feels to think of yourself that way. My prayers are with you dear & I'll be here for you(as the others will also)to help you through this hard time in your life.
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~ Mary Anne Radmacher
Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one. ~ Bruce Lee
That which does not kill us makes us stronger. ~ Friedrich Nietzsche