3 years ago I was diagnosed with anorexia and being a guy that has been something I am keen for other people to not find out about.

I've been stable for about a year but recently I have started losing weight again. I don't know what the rules about posting weights and heights are on this forum so I won't, I don't want to make targets or competition for anyone. But recently, not eating has become a complete norm.

I don't even need to 'not eat'. I literally have no appetite. I have no energy. No desire for any foods. I go days without eating and weight is dropping off of me. I don't want this.

I want to just be comfortable and happy. How can I be doing this without thinking? Feeling full is horrible. Eating a meal makes me feel horrendous.

Anyone else feel anything like this? I just can't cope much longer.

Try not eating large meals, just eat small snacks all day. Then you won't feel "full", but you'll be giving your body the nourishment it needs to survive. Or try taking supplemental vitamins? When I'm in a depressed state, I will try to wean myself off food, but I know it hurts others if they find out I'm not eating much. So I will eat for them. I know it will ultimately pass.

Anorexia, like any other mental illness can relapse, though so you shouldn't be ashamed to ask for help again.

Also, a lot of thinking is negative self-talk. I have this problem, where I get bogged down on my negative beliefs. Sometimes, the best medicine is to remove yourself from the situation and do something you enjoy, like reading a book. Yesterday, I even learned that moving from one place to another can signify a change in how you think because you're concentrating on removing yourself. Bringing a book or game can help you distract yourself.

Replacing a negative thought with a positive thought normally doesn't work initially, but with enough practice you can usually start the process of positive-thinking.

Also! You may be harboring a bad memory. Maybe you should try and write down your feelings on a paper and the memory will come back to you. If this happens, you can tell someone you are really close too/whomever and figure out a way to cope and forgive that part of your past. It's not meant to be easy, but it can be done. (I just admit I was hurting, and even though I am aware, I still have a lot of work before I am recovered!)

get foods that you like and that do not require any preparation and have them readily available, also agree with Crende about harboring a memory that's associated with eating