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Old 03-29-10, 11:10 AM   #1
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I'm supposed to be having a meal with my parents tonight for my birthday (not that's not a hint, I'm sure someone would have remembered anyway ) and frankly, my stomach and chest hurt just thinking about it. I've already eaten some sandwiches and a salad today without purging and now I'm supposed to be going out for a fucking feast! It wouldn't be such a big deal if I'd managed to go out on that bike ride like I intended to but I couldn't because, to put it bluntly, the muscles in my arse hurt from the ride I did yesterday, plus it ended up pissing it down with rain. Both my parents know about my struggle with purging so it's not like they wouldn't know what I was doing if I disappeared to the toilet for 15 minutes. Fuck how did I become this? I never used to be like this, I'm nearly crying at the thought of eating without the ability to purge afterwards, I already feel nauseous and I haven't even fucking eaten yet...

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I'm so sorry you're stuggling with this, hon, the only thing I can say is that I relate and that I'm here. And, try to eat even though the anxiety is horrible, at some point it has to change and you'll be able to act normally around food. It takes time, just hang on (((((((((((((((((Billy)))))))))))))))))
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Thanks hon ((((((((((((butterfly))))))))))))))))

I made it through the meal, managed to relax and enjoy the food in the end, skipped desert but that's OK, still managed the mains. Haven't purged, I can't really because I'll get caught, feel a bit low but not bad enough to give in to it... I don't actually feel too bad I guess, I thought I'd feel much more bloated and sick than I do. Just trying to ignore these feelings because I know they're irrational, some times I find that easier to do that than other times.
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That's really good, keep on fighting!! (((((((((((((((strengthening hugs)))))))))))))))
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