Originally Posted by too much pain for one
my doctor thinks i am anorexic!! i weigh 145 pounds. that is a lot for most girls around here so i don't understand why he is saying this. he made me start keeping a food diary but all i do is lie about what i eat. i don't get the point.
I found food diaries are only more triggering. If you find it to be that way, consult him about it. Different things work for different people though so it's a case-by-case thing. In this instance, I think he's trying to show you your problem. I was in denial about being anorexic for YEARS all the while simultaneously suffering from it. I finally accepted it sometime around a year and a half ago. Then thought back, "how long have I been like this?"...I traced it back to 10 years, but the rest is a blur after that. Maybe some childhood insecurities because I was heavier as a kid. It's too far back for me to remember.
Don't lie to yourself about what you're eating though.
The first step to a solution of a problem is accepting that you've got one.
Eating disorders exist at any size. They're more psychological, than they are physical. The physical aspect is really just a toll of the psychological issue.