I dreamt last night (for a very long time) that I had died.. I cant remember what had lead me to die, but I remember while I was dying it was painful. While I was dying I was so stressed about what was going to happen to me (as in will I still have a conciousness). When I passed away, I was in this house (heaven) and it was pleasant. But I missed my mum, dad and my small sister so much! I couldnt believe that I was never going to see them ever again.
Then this lady allowed me to see them once again, and I went to say goodbye ...(this is me being dead).. I remember hugging my mum tightly and crying to my dad. I just couldnt believe I had gone and I would never see them again. I also felt bad for them, they lost a daughter!? Weird.
I woke up around 5 am when mum goes to work - and thanked god it was just a dream. I fell back into the dream when I fell asleep for a while.
Ive always fantasised about death during my low times! Always. Constantly. I have tasted a bit of death too, and I guess I had more to live for. I wasnt afraid to die either and I would probably welcome it. After last nights dream I feel so weird. Like really weird.. I dont want to die.
I wonder what it means!!?