I’ve been reading and thinking a lot.
I came up with a theory, that makes sense to me (my personal understanding): each one of us is a set of spirits, a cluster of energy, that was put together to fulfill some missions.
The missions could seem not so much significant to us, but can have huge meaning in the greater scheme, and be an important part in chain of events.
Regardless of my severe depression and my intensifying wish to disappear, I can track some events where I was miraculously “saved” or taken out of some bad situations with possibly very bad outcomes.
I like to think it means I perhaps have not fulfilled all of my missions yet? Does it mean I should just hang tight through this storm and better days are yet to come?
Or may be what I am experiencing it’s that last moment of hope and positivity right before my end?
You know, like Avicii Feeling good. Or like the last cigarette before the psychogenic death...