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Old 03-23-12, 11:09 PM   #1
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There's nothing much to say my life sucks, I have no friends, no girlfriend, hell I don't even see anyone outside of my family which I hate and I can't move out because I don't have a job and when it did it was just soul crushing crap anyways. My parents did a fucking horrible job raising me I have no life skills.

My finances are a mess despite me having alot of money in the bank from when I did work and didn't do anything thus didn't spend anything, probably missed out on hundreds of dollars of interest and just got stupid bank fees the last two months since my checking account dropped below a certain balance without realizing it and as pathetic as it is 2 nearly 3 months is me catching it soon.

I've been paralized like my whole life practically, just going through the motions never happy never having any friends, my family constantly making things worse for (and still are). When I was 21 I finally got my first gf and instead of being supportive and realizing this was the only good thing that happened in my entire fucking life my familly (especially dad and sister) harassed me and made everything harder which eventually drove her away, we were together for like 6 months only, I'm 22 now and I can't even get a second date with any girl and it takes messaging hundreds of girls to get a first date (dating site) and it's not like I'm ugly or anything either.

I'm stressed to hell, hate my life never enjoy anything and there's nothing I can fucking do I can't concentrate and I can't think straight I certainly can't relax things just get worse and worse and worse and when I finally do get the willpower together to do something it blows up in my face and everything gets worse faster. Also every single time I trust someone or give them the benefit of the doubt I regret it every last time, friends stab me in the back and abandon me and say it's my fucking fault everyone in this world is a lying asshole and seems to hate me because I don't lie to them telling them what the pathetic drones want to hear I hate this pathetic world.
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Old 03-23-12, 11:58 PM   #2
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Ihatelife - First of all, welcome to TTL!

It's hard these days to find trust, honesty, and companionship with people. Give yourself the benfit(s) of the doubt though. People come and go within our lives, to me, it's part of the 'learning process' with life, people, and ourselves. They can say it's you're fault, but in reality, it's truly not. While I don't use 'dating sites' there's other way(s) to meet people. Volunteering, is just one way, off the top of my head that I can 'produce' for you. It's hard when family seem to 'run interference' within our relationship(s). While they may/might feel that their intention(s) are 'well ment' they, sometimes 'over-step their boundaries.' I'm sure it's extremely fustrating for yourself. You need to start trying to find things that help you relax, unwind, and help you concentrate a little better. May I ask, and hope you don't mind me doing so, what do you enjoy doing? Finding positive outlets are a good way to start.
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Old 03-24-12, 02:01 AM   #3
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People don't come into my life not easy and when they do they aren't good friends if they even are friends. Every single time I have regretted it with the exception of my ex. I don't meet anyone anywhere I don't go anywhere I have no where to go and I have horrible social skills thanks to my crappy parents chasing away all my friends and interrogating me when I don't come straight home from school so I stopped doing every pretty much until my ex and nothing changed with that either my sis is till a tattletale bitch and my dad still harassed us. Nothing changed all that time of me being miserable and friendless and they can't even leave me alone, they didn't have good intentions they just screwed up my life and did everything they could to make things harder.

So yeah I have no where else to meet people. Also it was dozen of people who stabbed me in the back that acted like that, I just can't take anymore of this fucking bullshit.

I don't enjoy anything anymore, I used to like writing and playing video games and watching shows but now I can't write because I'm too depressed or something I don't know I just can't and video games and shows are just time killers, it's been like this for years and I kept enjoying things less and less and now I just don't I don't even enjoy my favorite foods anymore.

I wouldn't even know where or how to volunteer and frankly the thought of doing work for nothing is just horrible. I really hated all my jobs and have crappy social skills so even (and this is being optimistic) if I meet someone I'd probably screw it up before I even get a date.

I have no outlets at all, haven't' forever, I asked for a punching bag for Christmas/birthday for like 5 years in a row and after saying "yeah" "sure" "later" bullshit from my parents they made it pretty clear they wouldn't let me string it up anywhere if I bought one my self and would never going to get me one. Pretty much like that for every single thing I ever wanted growing up. My parents never gave me/did anything I wanted OR needed and my sister being a tattletale bitch and a gossip just a year older then me pretty much killed any hope of lying to them and my reputation in school before I even got there...
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Old 03-24-12, 10:09 PM   #4
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Anyone have any advice or suggestions anything?
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Old 03-25-12, 12:53 AM   #5
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Ihatelife - I've had the same experiences with "friends." They either take advantage of me or they tend to "talk smack" behind my back. Hence, I choose not to have any, because I don't trust people. Even with that thought in mind, we all need somebody to talk, listen, and just hang out with sometimes.

First of all, we all need some kind of outlet(s). That's the only reason I brought up volunteering. It's give you an opportunity to meet people that are doing the same as you are. It gives you a 'common ground' to build something on. While yes, volunteering does consist of 'free work,' it also gives you a 'door' to open with people that have similar/common intrests.

Parents (as I am one) try to do what they 'feel is right' for their child(ren.) While at times, their intentions are well and good intentions; sometimes it also hinders their child(ren). I've been through that similar situation(s) with my own daughter. My advice is try to sit down and talk to them. There's always a good way to approach it or "issues" with them. Maybe they don't understand that they're not helping you? Maybe they "feel" they are, yet they don't understand how much it hurts you when, as you mentioned, too much "interrogations." Parents can be sometimes too over protective. While I'm not "excusing" their behaviour(s), if you don't try nor attempt to talk to them and explain things, maybe they don't understand how much "damage" they're actually doing?

There's always places to meet people. While I don't know what all of your intrests are, some of them might help you meet people. Just a thought. If you don't mind me asking/inquiring, what do you feel is wrong with your social skills?

There's always some kind of outlet(s). Even if it's throwing a pillow around, it's a positive outlet that wont hurt you or an inanimate object. There's also talking a walk, riding on a bike, or just listening to some music that you like/enjoy.

For your sister. It's hard when they always feel the need(s) to be a tatetale. Have you thought about talking to her? Maybe trying to explain things to her? I hope that's an option for you.
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I was in school for over a decade and had 3 jobs after that and those doors didn't help me and I have a feeling volunteering would just add to my stress like my jobs did, I don't get along with many people, even more so when there is a group, I just can't do free work

Try talking to them years ago a few times pretty much what made me stopped trying, it did not go well and just made things worse, I just can't talk to them. Also my mom has become literally/medically crazy recently so talking is pretty much off the table, since my dad just tries to blame everything on me and makes things worse. The only action I can take with my parents that would have any positive effect is telling them to back the fuck off if I ever get another girl. Also I sincerely doubt they are doing what they think is best, my dad cares more about our dog and keeping up appearances then me and both my parents just do whatever is easiest for them.

I don't know what my interests all I really don't have any, my parents never let me live so I really don't know what I like beyond writing, games and tv and like I said before I can't write anymore and games/tv are just time killers now. I can't meet anyone through any of those anyway and I totally lost my drive for everything and since I screwed up my fiances for royally I don't feel like wasting or even spending more money, I haven't been eating much since I found out, because worried about money despite me having a ton in saving (that I probably lost out on thousands of interest for not changing it to something with decent interest when I was working years ago or after I was laid off years ago).

I don't have any social skills that's the problem. If I had to guess I'd say I can't/don't lie enough (people really want you to at every turn it pisses me off) and people say I'm really harsh and I'm totally obvious to it, probably because everyone has been an asshole in my life and I was picked on alot in school and I have a thick skin so I just don't notice.

Music kinda works but my ears have been hurting lately. Throwing a pillow around just makes me want to put my fist through a wall it just isn't enough, I can't ride/don't have a bike because of guess who, and I feel stupid every time I go for a walk, I never have a destination and it's just not enough exercise and running makes me feel even more stupid and again no destination and it isn't enough either just gets my heart rate up and I end up restless and having to suppress my stress and rage even more since it boiled to the surface.

Talking to her isn't an option, I tried that years ago too and just made things worse just like my parents, I hate my family.
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Ihatelife - What about a delivery job? You're not going to encounter too many people, just the ones at the stops you'd make. Just another thought/suggestion and I hope you don't mind me offering them.

It's truly heartbreaking to hear that you're not able to communicate with them. I'm also sorry to hear about your mother.I hope you don't mind this tho. Maybe your father's just overwhelmed with too much on his plate right now? I'm sure he's concered about your mother as well as you both. While, again, I'm not 'justifing' his actions, sometimes people behave differently when they're under too much stress. Just another thought I had while reading your reply. I know that I act differently when I'm under too much stress/pressure. That's why I mentioned what I did.

You know, you could always go to the library. The reason I'm mentioning that is this. First of all, it's free. You can spend hours in there just reading books. Who knows, you might even meet new people that have the same taste in reading material that you do? Again, just "throwing" another thought/suggestion out.

For your music intrests. What do you enjoy listening to? Hope you don't mind me inquiring? Sorry to hear that your ears are bothering you. Have you had them checked out? Maybe you have an ear infection? For the pillow. I understand what you're saying. Not getting enough "fustrations" out, that's IF I understood you correctly.

For going out for a walk. I use to do that. I had no pre-planned destination(s) in mind. It just helped me to release some negative energy and it was good for clearing my thoughts. Have you considered trying to write a journal? While I understand what you said about writing, maybe that would be good in two ways for you. First, it might help get those 'creative juices' flowing again and secondly, you can express yourself; freely. I do write in mine, when things with my life or my daughter gets on my nerves. It helps me. It helps me to 'dump' it all out and just unload onto the pages.

I'm sorry to hear that your talk, years ago, didn't "produce" better results. I don't and never have had a real family.(long story) While things may not always go the way(s) we want to with them, it's much harder when you have to do it all by yourself.
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I can't get any job period right now, I avoid applying for the crappy labor in a factory kind but that's about it. Also I want to encounter people just not assholes, people get mad at me for not letting them screw me over I hate this stupid world.

This crap has been going on for as long as I can remember and she wasn't crazy then. Also I know he doesn't help at all, he makes her worse.

That might help some and no I don't mind suggestions it's why I'm here. Right now I'm just super stressed about my finances I'm going to try and get things sorted tomorrow.

It's not frustrations it's a fucking ton of stress and pure rage that's been building since I was in elementary school. I've been listening to alot of trance and nightcore songs lately.

Nothing happens in my life, nothing new, it'd just be the same bullshit over and over and I wouldn't trust having something like that saved or physically written anywhere either. I wrote purely fiction mostly fan fiction (since I suck at describing/naming characters)

I am aware almost everyone is better off with their family, I just don't think I'm one of them, I honestly think if my parents died in a car accident or something when I was a kid or even now my life would be better long term.
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Hi. If you have a job, at least you can go away from there. Stay on your own. If you think most people at the work place are sucks, think about the better life you'll get if you have a job. Once you're more stable out there, then look around for a better work place.

If living w/o parents near you is your priority, you have to sacrifice with that sucks job, it's temporary.

When you have better life, you feel better towards yourself, and towards your family.
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Hi. If you have a job, at least you can go away from there. Stay on your own. If you think most people at the work place are sucks, think about the better life you'll get if you have a job. Once you're more stable out there, then look around for a better work place.

If living w/o parents near you is your priority, you have to sacrifice with that sucks job, it's temporary.

When you have better life, you feel better towards yourself, and towards your family.
I CAN'T get a job. I have literally applied at hundreds of places and tried to improve my resume atleast 20 times. Right now I've just been mostly avoiding the worst case the kind of environment I never want to work in again.

I'll never feel better towards my parents or sister, and even if I moved out I'd be completely alone and what if I get laid off and can't get another job again and I run through my money... there goes hope of college and I'd have to come crawling back to my parents which is like one of the worst plausible scenarios I can imagine.
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