Hi angie, I feel the same way about life. Regrets about choices made, pain about how life turned out. I know it all too well and I haven't been able to turn it around. Nothing seems to work out, ever.
But horrible things happen to a lot of people. It doesn't change your situation but there are others out there who have had enough too. A lot of the times, we don't see them around. They are suffering in silence, most of the time away from the public eye. That is why it sometimes may feel like we are alone. But we are not.
It is good to speak up about your struggles. And whether you do it in therapy or here or wherever, it doesn't really matter. Sometimes just getting the story out can help.
Here is a
Just a few more weary days and then,
I'll fly away,
to a land where joys will never end,
I'll fly away.