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Old 01-17-14, 02:37 PM   #1
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What can be heard in my silence? All of the screams that I bury deep inside of me? What can they see? All of the hatred and lies that lie beneath my skin? My ribs feel like they are caving in...it's hard to breathe..to think...I just want to disappear. All of these thoughts and whispers in my head are killing me from the inside out and I can't escape...I'll be stained forever....

I'm standing in front of the mirror and all I see is ugly...who is that girl? Do I even know her? That can't be me....that girl is horrid. She's short and nothing but skin and bones..her hair is long and hides her face..an ugly face....her lips are scabbed over and her skin is ghostly white....she is weak...she is ugly.....most of all...she is dirty...she. is. nothing.

How could I have let this happen? Why didn't I turn around? Why didn't I run? My head is killing me. My throat is killing me. I just want to throw up...even if I dump the memory..it will stay with me forever....better just to keep your mouth shut, Cayce. No one will listen anyway....so that's what I do..I stay silent. This way..I can't get hurt. My silence is the only friend I have....
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Old 01-20-14, 04:53 AM   #2
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Thats a pretty name, Cayce. I'm sure it belongs to a girl far prettier than she would like to believe. It's ok to feel hurt, sadness, anger, even self loathing. They are normal human emotions, and dealing with them is part of growing. Why do you hold so much resentment for yourself? Do you have a substance abuse problem? I promise you things will not appear as dark and dreary as they do now forever. Things get better if you work at it and make changes to improve your life. Its good to vent and to explain your feelings to people who understand and who will listen and not judge no matter what. Tell us whats bothering you, or just tell us whats on your mind.
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