Hi everyone. I graduated 2 years ago and have been suffering with anxiety and depression ever since, on and off, but with really bad effects on my life.
I've been prone to anxiety in particular since I was young and also had bouts of depression in my teens. I never spoke to anyone about the depression, but was on citalopram for a little while for my anxiety, which I found helped but didn't solve the underlying issues, and my depression has got worse. Since graduating life hasn't been what I expected; I've done a little bit of travelling, some long unpaid internships, and have completed lots of other unpaid work experience in my desperate trek to find out what it is I want to do. I was always a high achiever so these structure-less, unrewarding, and all round disappointing past 2 years have made me feel so detached from the 'me' that I thought I was.
This has triggered a major bout of depression and now I seem to be stuck in a catch-22 situation; I'm depressed because I'm aimless, but I regularly can't even get dressed now because I'm so depressed. This has altered my way of thinking so I can't seem to make decisions and have no motivation to do anything anyway. I am about to start a full-time waitressing job which will fill my time but isn't exactly what I'd imagined myself doing 2 years after graduating, not to mention I'm still living with my mum.
I couldn't find any forums for people struggling post-uni or college, having left that structure, but I was hoping someone might be able to offer some advice or just someone to speak to :) Sorry if this is a bit of a whinge!