Ferrets: I was just getting ready to go to bed and then I saw your post. You know what, I am the same as you today - absolute crap and also want to give up this fight and also say screw it all. I admire you because you have been here awhile with 2,607 posts. That shows me that you are still fighting. Same here. I just have so little strength left and so little will to hang around.

You know what? Let's try and stay around together. I want to get to 2,000 posts as well. You are a good example for me. I truly look forward to hearing from you - it makes my day better just knowing you are here.

All the best. I am getting ready to go to bed. Until tomorrow my friend and myx your night be peaceful and hopefully calm and restful. Yours, Steven

Hi,
sorry its been awhile, been away from the pc.
Well I thought everything was good untill today, why do everything fall apart on me over a stupid question: why i always have faebook on my phone?

Ok so i would like more people to mail me so what is that wrong? why is it everyone else gets mail and I never do, hate it all.

I did bad thing today wish I didn't screwed things up more.

Just want to sleep and never wake up, giving up on the costumes, giving up on the pet obedience and well just everything in my life.

I hate feeling this way but nothing I can do.

What happened that was so bad? I received some horrible news as well and I just do not know what to do right now. I also hate this feeeling and that I know there is nothing I can do

I self harmed, and I just hate that I did it, I was just so angry, upset I just did it, all I kept saying was 'Iam not her' while I was doing it.I hate myself and just don't know what to do anymore.So I guess we are the same right now.

Don't know where to look or do apart from post here :)

I really feel for you. I do not self-harm myself by cutting my skin or anything like that; I have Borderline Type 2 where I cut way deep into my soul. Do not know which is worse. And yes, some days, or I will say a lot of days, are really hard

:( very sorry for u.I don't go to far but its bad enough for me.I haven't done it in so many months and I just broke that :( I just feel like laying down and crying.

I will go with that one, wish sometimes it could be easy.

I feel so badly for you but I also am proud of you for not doing it in many months. We are not robots or machines, we are people with feelings and needs. IF you are a cutter, than you are most likely Borderline right? We get caught into auto-controlling which means we do things without knowing when we started or stop or why. It goes with the sickness. Again, I am proud of you for holding off so long. I slip-up a lot of times and am so ashamed of myselof

I do not have any idea what I have, as I have not been to a Dr, purely because 1:scared 2: well just don't think its worth wasting any time.

Thank you, proud of u too for coming here and keeping me busy talking and helping others :)

well I shell start again and I hope I don't do it again but then the future only knows if I will.
I have to fill in forms before I go see a Dr. and have do that before next monday so I shell get on to it.

Usually cutting is related to Borderline. Are you a black and white thinker. only good or bad but no middle ground - the grey area where healthy people tend to think

NOrmaly I am in the middle, but most days when they are good I am good but just today and when it started last week I been thinking of silly thihngs and today took the step.

I just not sure on my self whats wrong with me or what.I guess those forms really need be filled in and taken back so can get this sorted.

Thank you for posting, keeping me going :)