My mother and my boss at work are trying to drive me to suicide.
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Unread 03-16-20, 12:47 AM   #1
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No joke.

My supervisor at work has been severely emotionally and psychologically abusing me for the last couple months.
I’ve had a couple nervous breakdowns during this time.
It’s a lot to describe. In short: from telling me that I was missing money in my register but he will “forgive” it to me to not putting me in schedule to mocking me and etc. this is the same boss who 3-4 years ago offered me money to sleep with him. I said no. He said if I was smarter I would have made my life much easier by now.

In the last heated conversation he said he could see through me and that those who suicide go to hell and etc etc ...I told him wtf he is talking about, and he just went on and on convincing me that this is what I am thinking about. And just did bunch of gaslighting on how he treats me nicely and I am just insane and paranoid.

My mother has told me couple months ago, that suicide is ok, sometimes it’s the answer.

Atm I am a little concerned over this virus situation. Especially that I’ve had dry cough for the last 3 days. And this is the exact moment when my mother decided to tell me the truth: that my father has abandoned me for the second time, and she doesn’t know why (WTF) or what I told him (victim blaming !!!!) that made him do that.

I was on limited contact with my father over the last year (text only). It’s complicated. He didn’t respond to my last messages back in November. I thought he died. But I wanted to know for sure. I didn’t want to contact anyone on my own to keep the situation on down low. I asked my mother to ask my aunt from fathers side. She kept dodging it: first waiting for a “good moment”, then “couldn’t reach her”, then waiting for a call back etc....

And this now, when I am sick in a city that has practically shut down with empty groceries stores, thousands miles away from her, she decided to tell me, that my father abandoned me for the second time and doesn’t give a shit if I am alive or not.

My situation is really dark. I am not actually suicidal, but just thinking, what’s the point of continuing this? There is literally zero people on this earth that care if I am here or not. But more of those that would rather not have me around.

May be the virus will get me and this all will be over soon.
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Unread 03-16-20, 11:16 PM   #2
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I am so saddened to hear your story but don’t forget that self-love is really a foundation for everything, and however, you practice or express that is so important. Remember that the will to win, the desire to succeed, the urge to reach your full potential... these are the keys that will unlock the door to personal excellence….stay strong and positive. ..there is always a rainbow after the rain
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Unread 03-18-20, 02:49 PM   #3
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File a sexual harassment complaint against your boss. He shouldn't treat you horrible because you refused to sleep with him.
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Unread 03-26-20, 08:57 PM   #4
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Dear In Search of People: I am beyond sorry for you that you have to deal with all this crap coming at you from every which way.
1st) You should not ever show up at work again. This boss person is a BAD person who does not deserve to even BE a boss. Do file a complaint with someone, I don't know who, but do not work there another day. NO ONE deserves to be treated the way he treats you and no one should be treated that way, NO ONE! If he thinks for one minute that his behavior is fine, he is wrong. Do not surround yourself with bad people as they will ruin your thoughts and feelings towards yourself. Get out of this place - period!
2nd) Your mother is a knothead, 8 ways to sunday. She is the next person you need to get away from. For a mother to say to you the things that she has, including how she has handled your fathers leaving, shows that she is a knothead! Get out of her life!
3rd) To hell with your father. If he wants you in his life & is willing to treat you lovingly and respectfully, then he can find you and ask you.
4th) Forget about the virus. That is the least of your worries.

Tomorrow is day one of your new life where you are in charge of it and who you allow to be in your life. If there is no love and respect, then there is no relationship of any kind, period. You are worth so much more than what you've been getting, that its time that others learn that you can be in charge of your life, and you realized that your life is superior without all of them in it.

Try and think of a trusted friend or a trusted, loved and 'normal rational' relative that may be willing to let you live with them until you can get your life back on track. I'm dead serious here. When you start living with and working with people who are of integrity and care, you will see yourself so much differently. And you will realize how low your life is right now. You may even meet the love of your life, who knows?
The point is you need a major change & you need it right now and you can have it. You CAN take care of yourself without all the crap and drama you are part of now. I wish you the best of life because you deserve it and you WILL have it one day. Good luck!
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