Hello, I am just here to vent and possibly talk to others. I have always had a history of depression and anxiety, but ever since I got out of training 2 months ago for my call center job my life has changed upside down. Around the first week we started taking phone calls ( credit card customer service job ) I started feeling very ill. I would get non stop hot flashes, horrible digestive problems, extreme mood swings, extreme panic attacks, horrible anxiety every single day of the week that I didn't know at the time would continue non stop for these two months. I have to work tomorrow and I just do not know if I can make it in. I have already used up all of my sick time just for my anxiety and feeling ill. Everyday I sit at my desk and get back to back phone calls for some hours it will seriously be back to back with out one second to take a breather. Every time I hear the beep I feel sick to my stomach having no idea if the next person on the line is going to scream and chew me out. I am a very sensitve person, I try not to be I really am trying but all I find my self doing is crying everyday even at work. I have been taking more anxiety meds than normal and I want to go to my doctors to get on a depression med because this job is leaving me feeling like a piece of poop.. people have told me to f off, I dont desrve to make money, I dont deserve to eat, I get called stupid, Someone can buy a house faster than I can help them, etc. On top of it all we have to sell these horribly verbally abusive peoplep products with a 70% offer rate and a bunch of other metrics or we will get the box. I just cannot offer on alot of the calls because I am terrfied and feel like I am going to barf. I am prepaid to just quit this job.. I could support my self for porbably only a month with my savings but I do not know if I can find a job again so soon. I have been applying all this week to see if I can get anything, I am trying so hard to keep working untill I find a new job but I cannot handle this pain and stress 7 days a week anymore.. I crave reflief I am petridfied to go to work. I am one of porbably 6 other people of my class of 16 that made it through training and are still working, you really have to be a certain type of person for this job. I can barley eat, me and my SO will not stop fighting because I am feeling so horrible and my SO thinks im being irresponsable if I do quit, which I can agree with, but I don't think I can go in for one more day or I will have a mental break down... I really wish my SO would be more supportive but I guess you can't understand depression and anxiety unless you have it your self. I have been having some dark thoughts about how I cannot stand to wake up for another day after working here, I have never felt more depressed in my life.