Hi, i am a 19 year old girl and i would like some advice about depression/OCD. I come across as a really happy person, i'm intelligent and i like the way i look but a lot of the time i feel really low. I started university in september and it has made me realise more how anxious i am. Whenever i speak to someone new i find myself constantly worrying about what they are thinking of me, i don't feel like anyone really likes me. I have made no new friends at university except my flat mates, but i know the two girls like eachother far more than me, i think i must be a really boring person. I am polite and nice to people but i always struggle thinking of what to say, or i think about what im going to say too much, or worry when i have said something. I never feel as though i can be myself. I have two best friends from school who i love, but recently even when i'm alone with them i am just worrying about what to say. The only person i truly feel okay around is my boyfriend, but i think he would be upset if i told him i might be depressed. When i am alone i feel sad about how i can't make any friends. I was assaulted last year by a girl i know and she got found not guilty in court and completely got away with it. I think about this every day. It takes up my thoughts and interferes with my work and social life. I get very obsessive thoughts, i also get stuck in phases where i believe that if i don't do a certain thing something bad will happen. At the minute i have to close every app on my phone or i can't settle properly. I've never really thought about depression much before. Am i depressed? I feel that i would sound silly saying all of this to a doctor. Also my nan is very ill at the moment, my mum is bi polar and i worry about her a lot, my dad also takes anti depressants. I am very stressed with exams at the minute and im very irritable with little energy, but i struggle sleeping. I'm not sure if there is actually something wrong with me or am i imagining it. I really don't know please help.