Hello im not sure if im posting this in the correct place i will explain my problem.
I have been struggling with this for 5 months now because a number of problems that appeared in my life and created me a lot of stress.
When i knew my girlfriend i was totally different i was a really happy person and a really active person aswell, but now i feel really sad most times and i dont wanna do anything literally i just want to let the time pass and breath because a lot of times i feel that i cant breath.
I did a lot of horrible mistakes and give replies to her that she doesnt deserve when i get anxious about all the problems and when i feel a bit calm i notice how stupid i was and how wrong i was.
she always had a lot of patience with me and the situation and listened to me and tried to support me as best as she could and even when she was doing that i felt like she didnt love me and i felt like all was bad even tho she said me hundreds of times that.
I know that i feel that because im feeling sad and that she is really happy with and she only wants to see me improve and be happy again since she proves me that over and over.
Now she is starting to feel a bit overwhelmed by the situation and she is telling me that i cant use depression as an excuse to all the mistakes i made and make even tho i know than that is the problem because i would never do and say things that i say when im at my limit and when i feel better i notice how stupid and how wrong i was. I dont know how to handle it i had times i dont want to overwhelm her i want her to stay as calm as possible and i dont want to turn my problems her problems.
I started to feel better but a couple of days before i went down again but now i feel like something is changing and i tell her that but i think that she didnt believe me since i told her that im feeling happier other times and i went down again but i trully feel that im getting better.
Sorry for the possible mistakes i made english is not my first language and sorry for the lack of order about all the things explained above.